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"Trowa's Secret"Written By: Emerald Pillow Pairings: 1+3 Warnings: Yaoi;Langauage, death fic. Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing, you can try
to sue me, but all you'll get is a cat with a half mask like Trowa
(But, her name is Duo...) Comments: It's from Trowa's POV and the story
is about a little secret that he's been hiding from Heero...I hope
you enjoy. Rating: NC 17 Trowa's Secret Part 1 His lips burned through mine with his love. The heated
touch aroused me. He was the first to ever fill me with lust with
just kisses. His hand was traveling southbound, seeking more than
just tender gestures of the lips. What he would get would be a lot
more than what he wanted. Not wanting to share my secret, I seized
his wrist and pulled it from the front of my jeans. I then crushed
our bodies together to prevent his hand from roaming any further.
I didn't realize until after I did this just how cruel it was, not
only to myself, but mostly him. The action was misleading and I wished
I hadn't done it. I didn't realize until after it was done, how much my
action aroused him. . .how misleading it was. I could feel his erection
pushed against my own. I couldn't help but wonder what it would feel
like to have him inside me. I already knew it wouldn't be anything
short of wonderful, just because of the emotion that would be exposed
through each thrust. As I ran my fingers through his short brown hair,
I tried to imagine what it would feel like to have his pulsing dick
inside me. Shit! I'm losing control of myself. I tried to pull away,
but his tongue massaging my own was too encouraging. Somehow, I gathered enough will power to break the kiss.
As usual, he left me breathless. I gasp his name, but it was barely
audible. I, myself, wouldn't have heard it if I didn't know any better.
I didn't really want him to stop. I wanted him to take me. As I tried
to regain my breath as well as my will to stop him, he continued kissing.
. .across my cheek. . .and to the only spot on my neck that rendered
me vulnerable to his seduction. At the same instant that he started
sucking on my neck, he began rocking our erections together. I dwelled on these thoughts, hoping that they would
bring forth logic and stop this before it was too late. . .but it
didn't. Everything inside me screamed for him to take me. . .to full
fill me and please me in a way I hadn't in quite some time now. I
closed my eyes and prepared to surrender to him. I couldn't find anything
inside myself to resist him. His lips rediscovered mine at the same
time that his hands returned to my belt and zipper. I kissed him as hard as I could. . .I know that this
was yet another misleading action. . .but a small fraction of me prayed
that he would somehow read my thoughts through my lips. I tried to
warn him that pleasure wasn't the only thing my jeans were concealing.
. .but he didn't understand. . .or didn't care. Which was why I hate
myself. I'm so weak to physical pleasure that I can't even warn the
man I love that having sex with me would kill him. How much could
I really love him if I couldn't protect him from myself? Tears burned
my eyes. I had to find a way to stop him. . .I couldn't hurt him.
. .not like this. . .but I just clinged tighter to him and kissed
harder. It wasn't until I gelt the warm flesh of his hand caress
me that I finally gained what I need to prevent this from going further.
The vision of a pair of beautiful sapphires that was so filled with
pain, anger, confusion, and hatred. Those eyes once looked at me the
way the closed colbats above did now. Sex caused me to lose the owner
of those sapphires. . .I didn't want to lose the one kissing me now.
. .the thought was enough to fuel me to stop this. "Heero. . ." I gasp and pulled from him. I
put as much distance between us as I could without him getting offended.
"What's wrong?" His voice was full of concerned
befuddlement. I tried not to look at him. It was hard enough to resist
him while my entire body was aching for his touch. . .but if my eyes
beheld his seductively lust filled eyes. . .if I just glimpse at his
exposed muscular chest. . .I feared that I would attack him and continue
where my interruption took place. My body needed space from his. It
needed to become immune to his touch for the time being. I could understand his confusion. He just didn't know.
. .I couldn't tell him. I was scared to tell him. I was afraid he
would resent me. . .afraid I'd lose him forever. . .afraid I would
have to relive the pain. . .worse yet, he would too. I stopped myself
from completing these thoughts. He was already looking at me worriedly.
I know it's wrong to hide from him like this, but how would he act
if he did know the truth? I felt him take my hand in his. . .felt
the strong arms wrap around my body. I wasn't prepared yet. I still
wanted him too badly to be close to him right now, but I still allowed
him to hold me. I leaned into his touch, wishing I didn't have to
lie to him. "I'm sorry." I whispered as he rubbed my back
comfortingly. He must have sensed somewhat of what I was feeling and
thinking, for he had stopped his seduction. "For what?" "For not going any further. . .for teasing you."
That's exactly what was happening. I was teasing the hell out of him,
but he was too kind to say anything. Regardless if he said it or not,
I knew that's what I was doing. Always making him hard, but not following
through. The way I was just now rubbing against him, kissing him,
touching him. I've been selfish toward him. . .but I needed him. I
needed his touch, his kiss. . .just him. ~ * ~ Chapter
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